finally got around to reading "hubol got emotionally poisoned in iowa". i think it's a cool storytelling format and i appreciate the personal aspect of it as well. like it's trying to capture a certain type of feeling. i think the question asked at the end "what did i use to filter my memories" is an interesting one, even if there isn't a simple hard line answer to it.
also [at] emotional density, i spent five years really involved with a social rso at my uni and part of my job was getting to know and meet a lot of different people, and one thing i will say is, i dont think things like "not having strong experiences" is abnormal or anything - lots of people are like that. people have such a wide variety of backgrounds and things that motivate them / hold value to them - and that kind of thing affects even the way we remember things and process things emotionally.
there might be a "norm" at your current workplace because groups tend to form cultures. but i think what's more productive than trying to fit the "norm" of the environment that you're in (which might change depending on where you go), is simply to understand what kind of a person you are. i dont think being more or less emotional is inherently more valuable than the other.
